A giant step backwards for women everywhere!

“Phew, sorry,” I say to my friend, Amy, after our conversation was interrupted by the WhorePhone, “that was a request!”

“Yay,” she says.

“Yea, I’ve talked to him a few times. This is the first time I didn’t die!”

“Wait, what?!”

This is one of those moments where I realize the things I talk about at work aren’t exactly normal. Besides the time I broke heads for the mob, I’ve had to participate in erotic deaths with a couple of other people.

This guy, Mervin, has called me several times. He’s the type of caller who tells the story. These are my second favorite, close behind the random conversations. Not simply because I get to be lazy — which is nice — but because I learn a lot. I’ll be armed with new material for the next guy with the fetish.

I can’t be terribly lazy though, I still have to be an active participant, especially if it’s a detailed fantasy. How lame would it be if you spent 15 minutes laying down your beautiful orgasmic story and you gave your partner a command or a question, wait expectantly and she says, “Excuse me, what did you say?”

I still have to be there.

Mervin is in his 30s. He has a soft and friendly voice. He sounds like he’d be your high school Chemistry teacher. He doesn’t sound creepy at all. Engaging, but just a little odd.

He begins to weave his fantasy for me.

“You’re a college student, not really much money. That’s why you do the phone thing. You’re still not making quite enough to survive so you start browsing websites looking for part time jobs. You come across one that says, ‘Actresses needed! Earn $1500 in a weekend.’

You decide it can’t hurt to try it out, you know they’re filming a movie in the next town over, so you figure they need extras. You know there’s a good chance it’ll be some skeezy porn flick, but you don’t care at this point.

You go to the address, and it’s a nondescript house in a subdivision. The neighborhood is lower middle class. Well kept lawns and driveways cluttered with brightly colorful children’s toys.

The woman who answers the doorbell is a pretty, older woman. Blonde and curvy. She’s wearing a long, terrycloth robe and smoking a cigarette. She introduces herself as Claire. She sits you down on the couch and explains that they are in fact, filming a porn film. She asks if that’s OK. You tell her that you’d been filmed before. You thought it was fun and it turned you on a little.

She asks if you’re into bondage. She explains they’re doing a film that features strangulation. She asks you what sorts of bondage play you’ve done in your personal life. You tell her you enjoy being tied up. Being choked makes you wet, so you’re starting to get turned on at the prospect of this movie. She tells you that you’ll be choked with a noose. That you’ll be flimed hanging from the ceiling by your neck. She asks you if that is OK. You’re a little afraid, but you tell her yes.

She leads you into a basement where there are 4 other girls in long white terrycloth robes. You notice they have marks around their wrists from being bound, they have the same marks around their necks. Claire instructs you to take all of your clothes off and follow them into a little room.

There are 5 stools set up and each of the four girls stands on one. You notice a camera on a tripod in front of the girls. Above each stool, is a noose hanging from the ceiling. They each take their robes off and pull the nooses around their necks. Claire tells you to take the empty one. As you climb up on your stool, you notice that there’s a number 3 painted on it. You place the noose around your neck.

Claire tells you that each stool has a number placed on it. She will draw a number, and that girl will hang until she dies. She looks you in the eye and asks you if this is OK.

You notice the other girls are masturbating as the camera rolls. You’re turned on, too, and you begin to touch yourself. You tell Claire that it is OK.

She reaches into a hat, and what number does she grab, Sarah?”

“Three,” I say with a sticky gasp. That’s why you have to pay attention!

“That’s right. And you know what that means?” He’s closing in on the finish line now.

“It means I’m going to die,” I say, afraid and aroused at once.

“It means you’re going to hang from your neck until you die. Do you want that, Sarah?”

“Oh yes!” I gasp.

“Say it…”

“I want to hang from my neck until I die,” I whisper as he groans.

“Do you want to die for me today?”

“I do. I want to die for you today. I want to hang by my neck until I die…”

After taking a moment to regain his composure, Mervin thanks me. He reminds me that these are just fantasies, and he doesn’t really want to watch girls hang until they die. I tell him I understand, and that it was a hot fantasy. And it was fun, in that disturbingly interesting way. As I said, he’s called me several times since then, once with the same fantasy, once where I didn’t die, and once today.

I told my friend, Jeremy, about this caller yesterday. I’ve known Jeremy for many years and he wants to be a mortician. Thus we joke about horrible things. He asked me if I had a good death rattle for Mervin. Only he would think such a thing! It hadn’t even occurred to me. I had to admit it was a good idea.

I helped another guy hang his girlfriend. Then there was the guy I had to beat to death with a rock while I rode him. For whatever reason, these calls didn’t really make huge waves in my mind’s perversion ocean. That should bother me! How was your day? Oh the usual: pregnant trannies, sexy grandmas and snuff porn.

When Mervin called today, he had a pretty creepy scenario. I was a prostitute who went with a john to this cellar. Same bare white room with a bright light and a video camera. There was a drainpipe with a noose waiting for me. He was so excited describing the room, and it was so vivid. I always try to match my breathing and the tone of my voice with the caller’s. I was there. I could see the room with the milk-crate for me to stand on. Hear the drip off the drain pipe and its echo in the cold room. I wondered if he’d ever had a girlfriend who liked to be choked and if he “accidentally” strangled her too hard one night and got off at the thought of making her die. I wondered if he’d ever actually killed anyone.

I understand that these are just fantasies; it’s just difficult to keep in mind when you hear that tone of voice. I tried to put that out of my mind and play along with Mervin though. Aside from the strangling teenagers thing, he seemed like a nice guy. I was a little nervous when I made my first attempt at the death rattle today. I didn’t want it to be hokey. I heard the catch in his voice and the groan so I did it again. And then once more, the grand finale. I’m giving up last breath. . .for you. He absolutely loved it! I’d like to thank Jeremy for helping me creep myself out and ensuring Mervin’s place as a regular. I’ll take him over Mr. Fantastic any any day. I look forward to the many ways I’ll be strangled.

I’m having an interesting night of calls. It’s one of those occasions that I’m actually enjoying being on and having fun with my customers. And it shows, they’ve all stayed to talk to me for their entire alloted time. It’s amazing what simply deciding to change your outlook can do.

I talk to a disabled Vietnam vet. He was feeling depressed about being stuck at home, in a wheelchair with no company, no one to talk to. This depresses me, too. We shift topics to nicer things, since he just wants to talk, no sex. I’m saddened when he gives me his address and asks if we can be pen pals. As much as I’d like to, I can’t. But, over the next few days, I think more and more, “why can’t I?” If it would brighten this poor guy’s day, why not? I could send them with no return addresses, even though that’s not really in the spirit of pen pal-dom…

I get a request from my new favorite caller, Sam. He’s quickly becoming a regular. He’s very nice and easy to talk to. It helps that his fantasies aren’t so far out there that I can’t relate. It is interesting that his fantasies are based on telephone conversations. For instance, in one case, I was his cleaning lady and he’d realized I’d been looking through his drawers, and he called me to confront me. The conversation came around to me having a crush on him and what would happen when I came back to his place for my punishment. Another was I was his wife, and he called me on his lunch break, interrupting my masturbating to the pool boy. I told him what I was doing, it turned him on, and we talked about possibly inviting the pool boy to join us that evening. There have been a couple of other calls, and in each case, we played characters having phone sex.

The next hour is spent with another regular. He wants to call me back when our time is up, but decides he’ll wait a little bit. He waits an hour and calls me back for another hour-long request. We don’t really have conversation, we “listen to each other masturbate.” So, I fake orgasms at semi-regular intervals while he shouts, “That’s the real thing baby! You’re really getting off, I can tell!” Indeed. He sometimes asks me to do bewildering things, like shove my panties up my ass or pussy. I’m not sure how or why he figures this would feel good for me, but I try to make the appropriate sounds. Once, he told me to shove three vibrators in me, end to end…all in all, though, he’s a nice guy, so I don’t mind him. He spends a lot of money with us, because he calls several times a week and he also talks to this other girl a lot.

The best comes just before I sign off. Mindy tells me he’s a brand new caller named George, and he wants to talk to a sweet and sexy, black, 20 year-old.

We introduce ourselves. George is an older gentleman from the South. He tells me he has a rather strange fetish, and wants to know how comfortable I am role-playing. I am always a little wary when they tell me their fetishes are strange, but I tell him we can talk about anything as long as all participants are 18.

He clears his throat and hesitates. I assure him that he can tell me anything, that’s what I’m here for.

“Well, see…it’s like this,” he begins, “The other day, this telemarketer called me, and I agreed to buy something for her, but I had to give her all of my personal information…”

“OK,” I say encouragingly, still with no clue where this will end up.

“Well, that just turned me on so much!” he announces, still a little hesitantly.

“…talking to the telemarketer?”

“Yes! Just, something about giving out my personal information turns me on so much. I’d like to be able to do that, but I think it would be even better if the person on the other end of the line knew I had my dick in my hand while she was getting this information.”

OH! Really?! Wow…

“Oh, so it’s just telling someone your confidential information gets you excited?” I ask, just to be sure.

“Yes, it really does. I’m not sure why, but, oh do I get worked up!”

I chuckle a little, relieved. That’s nothing!

“We can roleplay that, George, no problem.”

“Are you sure, that won’t make you uncomfortable?” He asks. It’s sweet when they’re really concerned about me being comfortable with their fantasy. Obviously, George is unaware that the company he called is dominated by men with strange fetishes, usually gross ones.

I assure him that it doesn’t make me uncomfortable in the least and it actually sounds like fun. He breathes a sigh of relief and tells me that he wants me to ask him for everything. He says if I want to write it all down, too, that would be even better. So, I grab my notebook and click my pen, making sure it’s noisy enough for him to hear.

“So, George, your phone rings, and I’m a telemarketer calling to offer you phone service,” I begin.

“OK,” he clears his throat, “Hello?”

“Hello, sir. My name is Serena, and I am calling from PhoneWhore Communications. I have an offer for a new telephone service for your area. Are you interested?”

“Oh, yes, I am!”

I can feel him relaxing, and that makes me smile. Funny how something so silly to me can be so stressful to him. I suppose it is a little strange.

“Well, sir, I’ll need your first and last name to get this set up.”

“George Thompson, miss.”

“All right, Mr. Thompson, and what is your address?”

He gives me his address, and in this manner I get his Social Security number and driver’s license number as well. I tell him we can keep his existing phone number, so he gives this to me, as well as his cell phone number, just in case.

I tell him that I want to make sure I have the information recorded accurately, and I read it back to him.

At this point he groans, “Oh, Serena, I’m playing with my dick right now, and it feels so good!”

“Well, I’m glad Mr. Thompson! Ok, now, we can set you up for monthly payments to be deducted directly from your checking account. Are you interested in that?”

“I am interested in that, let me grab my checkbook…”

“Thank you Mr. Thompson. And when you’re ready, please read me your routing number, followed by your checking account number.”

He does. He also tells me the balances in his checking and savings accounts.

I explain he can use his credit card as a backup payment method if he’d like. Of course he would like.

“But, just so you know, you can’t open up new accounts, I have it set up that way,” he says. This is the first time he’s sounded a little concerned. It is probably occurring to him that I could be shady and take all of this information and run.

“That’s ok, Mr. Thompson,” I reassure him, “We don’t need to open up new accounts. All that matters is that funds can be deducted from these existing accounts.”

“That’s fine, then. You can make purchases from the accounts, no problem,” he says happily, then groans a little and tells me how good he feels.

“Do you have notifications activated on these accounts? So, if an amount above a certain level is charged, the company will call to warn you?”

“Yes, if you spend a lot in one place, or if you make many small purchases that add up to a lot in one day, they’ll call and ask me if I authorized them.”

“I see. But, if I make small purchases, spaced out over time. Say, weekly, or monthly, then no red flags will pop up?”

He groans louder this time, “No, not at all.”

I take advantage of the thickness in his voice and repeat all the information he’s given me so far once more.

“Oh, Serena, my dick feels so good!”

“That makes me happy, Mr. Thompson.”

I’m not really sure what else to ask him, so he starts offering information. He tells me his email address and password. He gives me the website for his credit card company, and his user name and password. Then he gives me the 800 number for his bank and his access code for said 800 number as well as his debit card number and PIN.

He asks me if I can log into the website for his credit card and see if the password he gives me is correct. As luck would have it, my internet is out on this night, so I can’t do that. I don’t tell him this, instead, I open up a word document so he can hear me typing away.

I tell him I can see his account information. He asks if I can see his credit limit there. I tell him I’ve logged out already, but I did remember seeing it. Was it $5000? My wild stab in the dark pays off, and he says that’s right, voice thickening even more. I’m far from psychic, but since his checking and savings account balances weren’t terribly high, I figured he couldn’t have an astronomical credit limit.

I keep typing, telling him I’m now entering his information in our database. This allows me to read all of his information back to him once again.

He tells me again how good he feels, and is silent briefly. I again tell him that I’m happy he’s happy. He thanks me finally, and tells me that it was fun.

He reminds me again that his accounts are set up so that no one can open up new accounts, or get another credit card issued. I tell him I understand and that he doesn’t have to worry about anything.

Sometimes I wish I had fewer scruples. I have an Amazon wishlist after all! I hang up with a bemused smile. Not a bad night at work at all.

As she talks about them, she seems to have that bitter disdain for men like a lot of sex workers do. She calls them “idiots” and “fucking bastards.” Even when she says “the guys” there’s an edge to her voice. It’s strange to me, these guys just want to get off. They can do that for free! Instead, they’re giving us money to help them with their fantasies because they can’t talk to people in their real lives about them. I guess after 7 years of talking to perverts, you get burned out. ~Me

Change that to 7 months.

A couple of people have pointed out how my attitude has changed since I started. I’ve referred to callers as “assholes.” I’ve stopped focusing on the caller and started trying to IM and watch TV shows with closed captioning while talking to them. I get mad at them for not saying what they want, even though not very long ago, I wrote how that was an aspect of many calls and it was up to me to figure out what they really wanted. I actually enjoyed that process and felt proud of myself when I finally unraveled the mystery.

I use to have entries stockpiled for this blog, waiting for my weekly update. I’d write something at the end of nearly every shift. Now it’s been a month since I’ve written anything.

Why?

I’m not sure. On some level, I feel like I’ve heard every incarnation of the fantasies I’ve already written about. Perhaps since it’s not new to me anymore, and actually a little boring, I figure you’ll be bored, too.

But, why all of a sudden, am I bitter and angry at the poor pervs who just want to get off? Those men who probably don’t have a woman in their lives to tell these things to and turn to me suddenly get attitude. It’s not like anything has really changed. Most of the guys I talk to are surprisingly nice. Just because I’ve already talked to two guys who want to fuck their moms today, doesn’t mean the third guy deserves a half-assed phone call.

It is draining. You’re perky, and sexy and interested in his every word, or else he hangs up unhappy and you don’t get paid. You have to let men call you every terrible name they can think of, and describe doing disgusting things to you, without taking it personally. For 25 cents a minute. Or you have to verbally humiliate and abuse a caller, without letting them know you feel sorry for them. You have to convincingly talk seductively about things that might disturb you. Or offend you. For 25 cents a minute.

Do you realize that there’s a permanent, unalterable change in your mentality after you’ve described the texture of your poop as it flows into some guy’s mouth? Or that part of your brain screams in horror while another part describes the joys of bestiality? That sometimes, when you’re alone, handling your business, a man in heels will enter your dream, unbidden, and beg to suck the cum out of you?

You know, being a phone floozy ruins everything sexual in your life. I’ve thought more about what I’d do if a guy I dated wanted to wear panties in the past 8 months than I have ever in life. Comments from a man that ordinarily wouldn’t even register, I now wonder if they’re indicative of some deep, dark fetish. A guy might say, “yea, I’ve had a girl rim me, it was pretty cool. I’d let a girl do that again,” and it used to be barely eyebrow raising. Now? Now I wonder if he’s got manties in his closet and secretly wants to get assfucked by a big black dick.

Forget about ever having phone sex again. I wasn’t a big phone sexer before this job, but it would be impossible now. I tried exactly once. It’s difficult to not be Charlotte and be me, the girl who was into this particular guy. In my mind, he kept becoming a caller, not a guy I wanted to hump. I kept slipping into work mode and saying things that didn’t feel natural since they’re Charlotte lines. It took a lot effort to keep Charlotte at bay and just enjoy the moment. He felt as though he had all this competition since I’ve already heard everything, what could he possibly say to turn me on at this point? And in a way, that’s true. Not that a man I’m interested wouldn’t be capable of saying something sexy to me anymore, but the telephone thing has become so separated from my reality, it just won’t work.

Apparently, it’s intimidating, too. Guys have told me they wouldn’t want their girlfriend to be a phone whore. Or that they feel at a disadvantage because my dirty talk skills are way beyond what they can imagine. It takes sexy banter to a whole different level when, as a woman, you say something absolutely shocking to a man and leave him speechless. Unless I just meet pansy asses…

Even sex itself changes. On one hand, it’s awesome that suddenly, you can be very dirty talking in bed. Well, me, not you. I was never talkative, I was way too self conscious. Now that I understand the effect that some choice nastiness flowing from your lips can have, I’m not so self-conscious. On the other hand, now I worry that he’ll think I’m just exaggerating, saying dirty things because of my job. I can’t win!

And really, what do I tell people I do for a living when I go on job interviews? I provide customer service from home over the telephone. Well, what type of customer service to you provide? The type where the caller hangs up with a smile. And kind of sleepy and in need of a sandwich.

I’m trying to get back to bright-eyed, bushy-tailed Charlotte, who took such pride in making men cum from my well-crafted, personalized fantasies. I feel bad for them. How low must that feel? To have your phone whore yawning at your fantasy?

I need a rejuvenation! A rediscovery of what makes telephone acting so rewarding!

I’m trying.

Before we begin, I’d like to offer a suggestion to anyone calling a phone whore. Do not tell her that you’re into anything if you’re not really into anything. I will ask you multiple times if you’re sure you mean anything. Especially if you call on the “No Holds Barred” line and ask for a kinky girl. If you reiterate that yes, you’re into anything, I will warn you that I like to do very dirty things. If you tell me again that you’re into anything, and I can do whatever I want to you, I will bring my big black friend with his big black cock to play. If that fucks up your fantasy, it’s your own damn fault for telling me I could do whatever I wanted to you.

Anyway…

Mindy is chuckling lightly as I answer my phone. “Oh boy, I got a fun one for you tonight!”

She says this gleefully. I love that she gets so excited when I have messed up calls. I need to ask her if she’s ever phone whored or if she’s always been a receptionist. I bet if she’d been a phone whore she wouldn’t giggle so much at some of the requests we get.

I grab my notebook and pencil. I’m tired and distracted. I’m not in the mood to play tonight. I really haven’t been at all lately.

“Oh lord. What do you have for me tonight?” I ask warily. I remember when this job was fun and I was all gung-ho about making sure the guys enjoyed themselves with me. It didn’t take long for me to be irritated. Of course, it’s still nice when I make a man cum over the phone. I still get that sense of pride in a job well done, but sometimes, my heart is not in it.

“I have Jermay for 10 minutes. He wants 19, hot and horny, and motherly.”

We laugh. We always laugh when they ask for teenaged and motherly.

“That’s not all,” Mindy warns me, “He wants you to be pregnant.”

“OK, pregnant. Like, how pregnant should I be?” They usually want 7 or 8 months along, for whatever reason.

“Like, ready to pop!” She giggles as she tells me this.

“Ok, 19 and 9 months pregnant,” I say as I write in my notebook.

“Not just 9 months pregnant, but you’re in labor now!” She laughs heartily. She’s so good at saving the best detail for last.

“Oh yay!” I say, unenthusiastically.

“Of course we just happen to have a girl working at this moment who’s in labor! It’s his lucky day!” She jokes, “Connecting you now!”

Unsurprisingly, Jermay has a thick, very thick, very hick accent. “Hey baby,” he says huskily, “How you doin’ tonight?”

“I am so tired,” I say. Tiredly.

“Oh yea? How come you so tired?” He asks me. Tarred, actually. How come you so tarred?

“I am ready to have this baby out of me!” I exclaim, heavily.

“Oh you are?” His voice instantly takes on that horny tone I love so well, “Is that baby comin’?”

“It is! I’ve been having regular contractions and everything, I feel like I wanna push!” I say this as though I’m breathless and struggling.

“How can I help you?” He asks quietly.

“You can shove your hands up there and rip this baby outta me, Jermay!”

“Really?”

“Yes, Jermay, I want this baby out!!” I yell. I wonder again if my neighbors think I’m crazy.

“Just breathe, Sarah!” He encourages.

I start in on Lamaze breathing. That really seems to get him going, and he shouts more encouragement.

“That’s right, Sarah! You can do it! Breathe baby!”

“It’s coming, Jermay!” I shout, trying hard not to laugh.

Is this guy beating off to my Lamaze breathing? He’s the only guy in middle school who didn’t get grossed out at the birthing videos in health class. I wonder if instead of porn, he has natural childbirth sites bookmarked. I talk about a lot of very disgusting things with my callers, and he’s not the first to want a pregnant girl. I don’t understand what could possibly be erotic about a woman in labor, but who am I to question?

“Keep going! Push it, Sarah!” He’s shouting, too, so I imagine he’s having a good time.

“Oh, it’s coming, Jermay!” I shout and groan louder. I Lamaze breathe faster and harder. He hangs up halfway through my “pushing,” and I can dissolve into laughter.

I had an interesting conversation with Lil Tim Tim. He knows me as Mary Anne, but has never called me by name. He always calls me Mom, and has never dropped the baby talk with me. I’m never really sure what to do with him; it’s hard enough having a conversation for a half an hour with a real 5 year old!

Our conversations used to start with me being angry because he got in trouble at school for not acting his age. He’d tell me his teacher didn’t think he was ready for kindergarten. He just wanted to stay home and be a baby. We’ve reached an agreement where if he behaves at school, he can be Mommy’s Baby when he gets home. He gets a bubble bath. He gets to dump the baby powder on himself when we put the diaper on. Sometimes he wears footie pajamas, but mostly he kicks it in just a diaper. We’ll have a snack and then chit chat. Every once in a while, I’ll sing to him. The singing cracks me up, I am absolutely tone deaf but a real baby doesn’t really know any better; I don’t know how he tolerates it.

This call was a little different. He asked me what I was wearing and what I did for a living. He asked how old I was and what I looked like. I’ve talked to him countless times and these things have never come up. I was never more than this abstract “Mom” in his fantasy. It threw me off a little bit and I had to remember to use my mommy voice and not the sexy voice in describing myself.

We were laying on my bed and he had his head on my stomach. He was wearing his baby bunny diapers and I was stroking his hair while we talked about baby bunnies and duckies. It was a quiet sort of thing, since I was really tired and out of things to talk about. We were getting ready for a nap, when he asked me, “Why do I like being a baby, Mommy?”

Now there’s a loaded question for you.

I thought for a bit, then I said, “Sometimes it’s hard to be a big boy. You have to do all sorts of things you don’t want to do. And sometimes, when you’re a big boy, you have to do things you don’t even like to do. That’s not very fun and it’s very stressful. So, it’s nice to come home and be a baby with no worries at all. It’s nice to lay your head on a warm tummy and just relax with someone who loves you. And who loves you more than your mommy?”

He was quiet for a long time. I didn’t know if I’d said something wrong, so I just sat there waiting. He finally said, in a husky sort of baby voice, “I really enjoy talking to you, Mary Anne.”

It didn’t strike me as I was saying it that I was anywhere near the mark, I was mostly just rambling. Early in the conversation he’d said that kindergarten was hard and that he was very tired. I took it to mean he had a stressful week at work, and that’s why it was a sleepy sort of conversation we were having. I was only trying to talk in the way you do when you’re laying in bed half asleep, just enjoying being warm and near someone.

I don’t tend to question “why” when I talk to my pervs. That’s not really for me to know or attempt to figure out. In most cases, I can’t even begin to think of whys. Much of the time, I can’t figure out why I do the things that I do. How can I begin to understand why some guy would want to have sex with a pregnant tranny? The least important aspect of that conversation is how the tranny got pregnant to begin with and that’s a big fucking question.

I’ve never thought about why people want to be adult babies. I mean, I’ve wondered why Tim Tim talks to Mindy in the baby voice, too, and why he chooses to be 5. I often wonder why he snivels all the fucking time. I wonder why listening to a grown man pretending to be 5 only really infuriates me when he won’t stop sniveling. I wonder if he gets to play this fantasy out with a significant other, or if he ever has. How would that conversation go? How do you even tell your lady that you like to put on a diaper and talk like a 5 year old? He gets so into his character, I can’t imagine I’d be his only outlet. If I am, I feel bad for him.

In fact, I’ve never even wondered what he does for a living until I was relating this story to a friend the other night. I’ve never wondered how old he really is, or if he’s married or has any children. I was never convinced any of that really mattered. It’s all about making sure they get off within their allotted time, right? Well, Tim Tim never gets off as far as I can tell. Our conversations never turn sexual, I don’t know if he makes it sexy once we hang up. I suppose it’s possible.

Now I wonder if my attempt at answering why will change the dynamic between Lil Tim Tim and Mommy. Is Lil Tim Tim my new biggest fan now because I figured out why he likes being a baby? Is he in awe and in love, thinking I get him? Maybe our conversations will be easier since I’ve touched a part of his psyche.

What if he really did have to do something that made him unhappy in his real life version of kindergarten? Did he have to fire someone? Did he have to sit in all day conferences listening to discussions of profit margins and second quarter earnings? Maybe he got fired; I keep hearing the economy is in the shitter after all.

Or maybe I was way off and he hung up laughing, saying, “This whore thinks she’s smart!”